i want to let go
i want to let go of all the shit youve put me through
the countless days ive spent panicking that youll be back
you took away my self respect
i shamed myself for things i didnt even do
you created rumours so powerful that i started to believe them too
and what a mindset it caused
i beat myself down, belittled myself
“why would you do that her? you were best friends”
the thing is, i didn’t do it
you know that just as well as i do
i wouldnt wish that upon my worst enemy
i wouldnt wish that upon you
and how easy it is for you to go out
and victimize yourself
tell people how badly i treated you?
that i couldve helped you and i didnt
i tried.
i tried so hard to be your remedy
but you cant save someone that doesnt wanna be saved
you reject help, and maybe you dont realize it
maybe youre so self centered
that you cant even see past your own mind
youre just a girl who didnt get the love she needed
and im really sorry
im sorry you believed your own lies
im sorry you had to victimize yourself
im sorry you had to bring me down to make yourself feel better
how do you feel now?
now that its been three years
i know you have the same problems
you still drink until you cant think straight
you still lie until you cant see the truth
you still fucking hate me just like ill never hate you
i honestly hope you get better
because if youre in so much pain that youve resorted to this
im not the one who needs help
its you
and you know that better than anyone else
Please give a detailed explanation about the meaning and main idea of this poem.
This is a poem about a friend I used to have, that left my life over a rumour our mutual friend had started about me. Once she was gone, I realized how draining it had been to be friends. My life was altered by her presence, and I'm glad now that it's over.
Please explain your writing and thought process regarding this poem.
It was mostly just a jumble of my thoughts that came out one night. I was upset about the situation, and needed a coping mechanism.
Why did you choose to write this poem?
As a coping mechanism.
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