Cycle of Sin - By: Madison Coulson

I come before God

The same old pray whispered between my lips

'Forgive me Lord for I have sinned.'

I feel so dirty

So unkempt

So useless

My knees turn thin from the countless times I kneel

The carpet etched into my skin

'I'm sorry lord.'

Will I ever be good?

For I don't want to be this way

I just don't know how to change

'Help me Lord.'

A useless child of God

One who can't turn back her ways

I used to be so Holy

So pure.

'Please don't give up on me..not yet.'

Oh how I hope that the lord does not see me as I see myself

'In Jesus's name I pray'

Will I ever stop this cycle?

'Amen.'

Please give a detailed explanation about the meaning and main idea of this poem.

Behind this poem are my struggles of battling sin. I'm constantly trying to be better for God but constantly failing. This poem allows me to reflect and maybe help others realize they aren't alone. No one's perfect and everyone has their struggles.

Please explain your writing and thought process regarding this poem.

Honestly I first wrote this poem on an anonymous letter website. I kept looking back on it and realized I did like the poem. So I wrote it down in a note book and made some changes. But in the end, it's pure emotion written late at night through tears. And sometimes that's when the most beautiful work comes out.

Why did you choose to write this poem?

I choose to wrote this poem because it's honest. I didn't think when I was writing it, I just wrote as if I was telling myself how I felt and it came from there.

Do you have any tips or anything to share with the youth writers who may be reading this?

Write whenever you can. Even if you feel what you're making is 'bad' at least your writing. And each poem, story, song or one line you write pushes you further towards success. Write when you're happy, sad, mad, sick, bored or tired. Write honestly and write for what matters to YOU. Not others.